1. |
Dust Myself Off
04:14
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It's times like these you're never gonna win
Try something new but it's just trying something again
'cuz everything has already been done
And there's nothing more
We try to look forward but can't keep ourselves from looking back
The past's got a way of twisting all of these facts
But if this new life we've been given has meaning
Then I'm not leaving
I, I'm gonna dust myself off
My choices are driven by the beat of my heart
There's an old mailbox with a number painted on the side
A family and all of their troubles fill up the inside
But mistakes don't define the mind it keeps it blind all the time
And that's all that we've ever known
I, I'm gonna dust myself off
My choices are driven by the beat of my heart
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2. |
Leave With Nothing
03:28
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Will I remember you
Will I remember your kiss
Will I remember you
Will I remember your gifts
I will leave
Empty handed
Gonna leave with nothing
Gonna leave with nothing
Gonna leave with nothing but you
My heart is a flame
It is a flame
Your touch is gasoline
For good or better
For worse or worser
Gonna leave with nothing
Gonna leave with nothing
Gonna leave with nothing but you
Gonna leave with nothing
Gonna leave with nothing
Gonna leave with nothing but you
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3. |
New Plan
04:03
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Take everything that's left of me,
Crumble it into a ball
Throw it out at the closest garbage can
That's not what I am about anymore
I want to start again
Focus on family and closest friends
All else that clutters I'm shutting the shutters
and humbly I think to myself
I'm a new man
This is my new plan
To focus on you
To tell you the truth
This heart's made of glass
I want to buy you a ring,
and after that pick out a home
You paint the kitchen
and I'll mow the lawn
And at night we could lay all alone
and look up at the stars
You've shown me true love
A companion always right by my side
This life gets tough but it's easier with two
and Lord knows I'm nothing alone
I'm a new man
This is my new plan
To focus on you
To tell you the truth
This heart's made of glass
If my income was low,
I'd still have gold
I'd have the memories we shared
and the stories we told.
Written By Curtis Thomson
Mixed, recorded, and produced by Zack Smith
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all rights reserved
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4. |
Coming Back to You
02:51
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Bottles and cans crushed up and half poured,
Waking up half-drunk on carpeted floors
Check for my keys and they're nowhere to be found,
Looking for you but you were never around
Check my phone and it says 4%
I'm looking at the conversations seeing what I sent
It's not making any sense but you know they never do
Slept with a blanket last night I was just wishing it was you
Wish didn't come true
They say be careful what you wish for but what do they mean?
I guess they mean that you can't see the unseen
I guess they mean that when you think you got it all figured out
But tomorrow when you find the girl you love sleeps on someone else's couch
Painting someone else's house
scratching someone else's back
asked how someone else's day was going
never texted back
She falls asleep to different shows and a different kind of song
Called her on her cell phone she said "is there something wrong?"
and you say "no, not nothing I'm fine,
I don't want to waste all of your sweet time"
I had to block all your friends on your Facebook too
Cause every time I saw that smile I was coming right back to you
I'm coming back to you
Written by Curtis Thomson
Recorded, mixed, and Produced by Zack Smith
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5. |
Self Worth(less)
05:32
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Self worth, self worthless, self was worth more,
back when my heart was pure.
When I could rest my head at night and pray for things
Pray for, pray for, less fortunate folks,
for those who worry for work
So they could rest their heads at night and pay for things
Death bed, death bed, best sleep I've had in months,
with IVs and my stomach pump
And heart beating so slow I could hear my ghost
Wake up, wake up, my friends are not in sight,
they got a motel overnight,
and didn't sleep till worries disappeared
But they never left my side, helped me pick myself up off of the ground
I, I'm embarrassed of myself
I'm embarrassed of my sin
I'm embarrassed of the thing that I became
I, I'm embarrassed of myself
I'm embarrassed of my sin
I'm embarrassed of the thing that I became,
when My thoughts started to fade, I could hear a whisper say
Son,
you're not fooling anyone
It's time to walk, then run towards me
Friend,
My love for you will never end
It's time to rise again
There's hope for all fallen men
Son,
you're not fooling anyone
You have my heart, my love,
It's time to rise above
*Spoken word*
But the voices all stop and my spirit lifts when I feel the endless love from a humbled man in a white, perfect cloth bleed out for the forgiveness of my sin
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6. |
Who You Are
04:56
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You said you wanted to change
You said you needed some help
But every couple months
You would open a bottle and say that you need it
But it makes things worse, take it from me
Nobody knows the demons you've seen
Nothing is working it seems
Lost in yourself and you can't make it stop
It follows you right there beside you
But you gotta break free! Break free! Break free!
Are you gonna be
Are you gonna be
who you are
Are you gonna wave
Are you gonna wave
the white flag and just quit
Are you gonna be
Are you gonna be
who you are
You've got, you've got so much left
You can, you can do better
So tear up the past, tear up the past and start over
Each step of life, thought out in full
you can't keep following your old path
Are you gonna be
Are you gonna be
who you are
Are you gonna wave
Are you gonna wave
the white flag and just quit
Are you gonna be
Are you gonna be
who you are
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7. |
Move Along
03:24
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Fear leads the rabbit towards the hunter and the gun
Passion leads the track star to the record breaking run
And I'll never quit until the work I have is done
And I'll never stop until I love what I've become
When you love someone
You hate yourself
You'll never fit the mold
So just be yourself
Love is what people say when you make them feel good
Leave is what the people do when they think that they should
Hate, people only hate the things that they can't buy
Stay you won't find true love until you really try
When you love someone
You hate yourself
You'll never fit the mold
So just be yourself
If it keeps you up at night
You've already lost the fight
So move along
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8. |
Hard Work
02:59
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If Im being completely honest
I should have known this wouldn’t work
I believe in hard work
I just cleaned out my desk
Million zillion letters with no headers
I threw out the rest
And I just cleaned out my drawer
Million zillion reasons why you'd never leave, but still you did
If Im being completely honest with myself
I should have known this wouldn’t work
I believe in hard work and pushing through
I just went through my phone
Million zillion pictures of your smiling face I believed was true
I just went through my phone million zillion times I let my guard down, and then you ran
If Im being completely honest with myself
I should have known this wouldn’t work
I believe in hard work and pushing through
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9. |
Hero
04:53
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I know it started with a broken heart, filled with jealousy
Of the tv model girl
you thought he wanted you to be
I know it started with a kiss
A heart string plucked that you had missed
And it kept you under lock and lie and key
You were just an innocent teen
You were just what kept me smiling
Maybe we're naive, I was young and I couldn't see
All the hardships in this life that made you sick
But I don't want you to poke yourself and I don't want you to pop those pills
Going up you know you're coming back down hard
So my sister and my friends
You all know how this thing ends
Wearing orange behind the bars or in a grave
All the reasons that you do is matched by 1 reason to not
Band aids don't fix complicated hearts
Duct tape don't fix houses, don't fix cars
Short term but fixes never get you far
And hero(ine) doesn't know your name
And my heart doesn't beat the same without you
But please don't die, I just want you to stay on alive
Please stay alive stay alive
Your back story
For a 20
So you could fill what can't be filled
With a needle or a bottle or a half a bag of pills
You may have lost your house
You may be living on the streets
But we can't help you till you help yourself
You call our parents on the phone
Blame them for the thing that's wrong
But you can't overcome till you can know
You are not a helpless woman
You are not a failure to God's plan
But hero(ine) doesn't know your name
And my heart doesn't beat the same without you
But please don't die, I just want you to stay alive
Please stay alive stay alive
Your back story
For a 20
So you could fill what can't be filled
With a needle or a bottle or a half a bag of pills
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10. |
Lift Off
04:34
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I saw the blueprint there
In your back pocket
Sketched on a notepad sheet
It was a rocket
You said you were going up there
the clouds woulda been your stool
Playing your fiddle strings
That was your rocket fuel
But no countdown
Just lift off
No, no countdown
Just gone
You were the most prepared
You had a heart of gold
Your presence was without doubt
Filled by a Holy Ghost
The last thing I heard you say
Was we need to hangout more
I guess that we still can
When it's my time to meet the lord
I'm starting to pray again
It's where I hear your songs
Like birds on electric wires
Humming into my ear
Hope you enjoyed your flight
We're gonna miss you
But no, no countdown
Just lift off
But no, no countdown
Just gone
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Curtis Thomson New Jersey
I hope my vulnerable songwriting brings comfort to you who listen to these tracks! Not meant to be happy or sad or anything, just honest and caring ❤️ thanks for lending an ear!
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